Poem152 Untitled

I hurt so many just by being
who I am, just by saying
what I say.
I use the ones who call me friend
in ways they just can't see
and worst to me
is that I do it
Indifferently.
I care,
but I don't care
I want to care,
but I don't care
I try to care,
but I don't care
I'm such an ass,
How can someone be
so self-centered?
I hate the way I treat people
Separate, separate
always separate
always separate from me.
No attachments
Nothing strong
Nothing that will last,
not a human care

And I wonder why I'm so alone.